Struggle. So deep in some moments, I wonder if I might simply explode. Become a mist, blown away by the winds of change.
Mind so fragmented I fight to pin it down. To hold on to the Clarity as the moments whirl.
This fight for worth. For my heart. It has Led me straight over the edge, falling far past safety. My comfort.
And yet I am Real. It is in that moment that I begin to live. The moment when your Journey throws you right off a cliff.
It is in the desperate free-fall that you learn to Cling. To nothing but Him.
When your Path becomes so narrow you have to let go.
When He asks you to let go.
And to those looking on, none of it makes sense. The choices seem contrary to the "right" way.
But then that's Faith. The walking out into the darkness.
Knowing whatever He asks, wherever He leads, He walks with you. Carries you.
For this picture I am painting. This life. It is only His.
Only He can create a True story.
A life filled with Adventure. Passion. Love.
Only He can fill.
And that is all I want my dear little hearts to learn.
There is freedom in Surrender. Joy in the suffering. Fullness in the letting go. The emptying makes you Whole.
This life is simply for seeking His heart. There is no greater purpose. No greater privilege.
In a 1000 years nothing else will matter.
There is only Him.
And living the life that takes you there, deep into His heart, is Radical. Wild. Dangerous.
It's not safe and neatly packaged. You will be judged. They will not understand. Some from fear, others because their own longing is so stifled they simply cannot bear it.
There is no room for holding back. Only Surrender.
Only the choice to live in the footprints of the One who gave all.
To walk with hands open and head held high. Allowing the flowing in and the flowing out of the tide of Blessing. Accepting the cup offered, whether the taste is bitter or sweet.
Holding nothing back.
Walking in Hope. Not of ease or comfort, but only of Goodness.
For He is Good.
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4